Lucy's Angel Journal ......

Day 1 2.07.07
A lot of discussions today resonated with exactly how I feel- the push to speak my truth and to be truly honest with myself and others. I agree, it doesn’t serve others for me to keep silent – it only frustrates me and it doesn’t help me or others with our lessons.
The crystals and angel cards I picked today purported to self worth and letting ‘old’ emotions and relationships go. I felt very emotional whilst driving home and allowed the tears to flow. The feelings wont overwhelm me I know and will help me ‘experience’ life rather then rationalise/make sense of everything in my head. The groups’ lesson is self worth/esteem, which is a huge stumbling block for me. I’m hoping this week we will all grow, glow, help and support each other. I AM in the right place and change is taking place!
Xxx


Day 2 3.07.07
What an amazing day! We did automatic writing and card reading today, I enjoyed both immensely! The atonement was a magical and special experience. Half way through I felt my mind begin to ‘chatter’ about issues and events and people in my past – I realise now maybe that needed to happen as a letting go and releasing of the old to make space for the new. I keep being told to live in the NOW. I realise it isn’t a case of trying – it’s a MUST.
Previously, I have always lived in the past or future. It is time NOW to live in every moment and not predict my future or others thoughts or reactions. Speaking MY truth is paramount too. It might shock some people, but that’s their issues not mine. Knowing I need to work on my self esteem, I decided today after I said thanks and gratitude for everything in my life I’d affirm all the qualities I possess I am grateful for in me! It was very empowering and I meant everything I said. I still have a way to go with loving and valuing myself but every step I take I feel my inner love growing.
Xxx


Day 3 4.07.07
During one of the meditations today I felt a real shift in my emotions. Carrying the emotions of losing a baby in the past few months and the frustration, sadness and anger of feeling abandoned has weighed me down for too long. Those feelings are no longer helpful and kept me tied to the past and in a dark place and greatly affected my sense of worth. I realise there is nothing ‘wrong’ with me. I am a loving and worthwhile person and I acknowledge the lesson that was present there for me. The meditation shifted that block and put me into ‘my’ energy. I realise letting the old go leaves space for the new to enter. It was a very freeing and exciting feeling!
We gave healing treatments and I felt unconditional love pouring through me. Today has been freeing and liberating! Miracles are unfolding – when leaving Michelle’s today I heard I can move into my new flat! I feel I’m aligned with the inner me and the new is flooding in.
Xxx


Day 4 5.07.07
After basking in the glory of the ‘new’ me, life threw an old issue/pattern back at me last night with full force. After initially panicking and shaking uncontrollably I remembered an exercise we learnt in class. I lay down and visualised my emotional body rising away from my physical body and being still. From there I could see the situation for what is really was – other people’s fear and issues which no longer ‘fit’ with me. Now I love and respect myself too much to allow myself to be back in a negative ‘old’ space. Within an hour I was back into alignment with my inner peace rather than the days/weeks/months it has previously taken.
As a group we are growing together…. I feel loved and supported, and part of a family. I feel privileged to be part of their journeys too and I love watching everyone grow and illuminate when they realise their own inner beauty and light. We learnt about channelling energy today and I loved giving my two treatments. I feel I was being urged today to be more open to receiving. If I’m more open to receiving I’ll have more to give and finally I acknowledge I deserve to receive.
Xxx


Day 5 6.07.07
Wow! Another special, amazing, unique, refreshing, releasing day. It’s difficult to put into words the transformations that take place each day. I made another huge shift today in releasing a cord I had with another person. I still love them deeply but I know it’s time to move forward and for us both to grow separately. I went from crying to giggling quite quickly. The love and support within the group is so strong now – we are one (whilst still growing individually too). I will feel sad to travel home tomorrow and leave the love and light from within Michelle’s home behind. However I know I will take the love and wisdom with me forward in my journey. I also know I have made friends and travelling companions that will stay in my heart forever.
Xxx


Day 6 7.07.07
Whilst our course has drawn to a close today I feel it’s merely the beginning………. I know something special and extraordinary has taken place for me this week. I’m eager and excited to fly now in a new direction walking my talk and speaking my truth. Michelle has given me the tool’s to access a new love and wisdom from within myself. I truly believe miracles have taken place this week.
Xxx