Gifts of love ...

A big hello to all my beautiful Angel friends. I hope today finds you well - and keeping dry and safe from the storms.


It is amazing how from one email of words so many can gain different things, or read it from a different perspective - one thing I do want to clear as I felt is was maybe mis - read, is with regards to my comment of "bringing Sanctuary of Angels to an end".. These words clearly stuck out to you more than others and it was not stating an intention more a momentarily feeling. Love can hurt sometimes and therefore my love and passion for Sanctuary of Angels can hurt too BUT never would I give up that love. Sanctuary of Angels is a life force energy within me - it is as essential to my day as bread and water and is my heart.


There is so much to tell you about what happened after 320 am, that I do not know where to begin. I feel the first step would be to say "Thank you". Thank you to all of you for your gifts of love. Not only did these come in the form of words by phone and email but also in the form of seeing my needs as "Michelle." One lady noted she could sense that I could do with a jolly good massage and so on Wednesday that is where I went - Louise saw my needs, not just the massage - it was more the need for rest, support, nurturing and most of all to be spoken to and seen as simply - me.


On the courses I guide the students through a little routine that allows the emotional body to "step back". One of the many things this enables us to do is detach from our emotions to be able to see a clearly situation and receive divine guidance so that we may heal and move forward.


I knew last week my emotional body was a bit too close for comfort, again something was birthing for me. Have you ever had that feeling of a deep in your belly fear but you don't know what it is and it can make your eyes weep all on their own, as if leaking while the big well of tears just lies in waiting?


I was bit stuck - actually that is not the truth, I was very stuck - I appreciate to heal an emotion we need to feel it to it's full intensity so it may heal and we return to center but I could not move my emotional body to meditate or be calm at all -


After writing "out loud" at 320 in the morning there was an instant shift in my energy much like when I wrote to you about my greatest challenge. I was able to sit in the garden at 615am - the first time in a week and enjoy the warm rain (in my dressing gown) - I had returned to bliss.


On Monday morning Andria, a beautiful lady who recently attended a course visited my home to prepare a Angelic crystal grid for me. I was guided to ask her and what could have been difficult to arrange, all fell neatly into place.


Andria commented she was nervous, she had placed me on a pedestal of teacher, student role and although this was "normal" - I began to cry. I have tried so hard to be equal, it is a strong moral in me, I do not have the ego or the desire for power to want to be placed above others on a pedestal. That was why going out for a meal with the Glasgow group was so important to me - acceptance I suppose rather than being different.


The grid was placed and instantly I saw many, many healing hands. It was very comforting but most importantly I felt incredibly supported.


The first thing I heard was "Give and expect nothing in return." I questioned the Angels as I felt I did and they lit up the word "expect." The message was then clear and for this I am truly sorry as I have had an expectation of you. I have offered my words and hands of light and have expected my offering to be taken. I now see that that is giving with expectation. To give is my be - ing but it is your choice as to when or if you are ready to accept.


I questioned why all the services offered by Sanctuary of Angels were guided and yet some were just eating my time and not working. I was told that Sanctuary of Angels was offering the right services but as I already knew Sanctuary of Angels is a community and so it was my responsibility to receive the inspiration but not necessary to take the action. I was told support in building this community was coming - this was a huge sigh of relief for me.


I was then shown a part of me that had been trying to get my attention for healing. It was al little girl me and she was feeling "not good enough" and very unsupported by everyone and the world. She also felt her needs and her true self were not seen.


Well I think that just about sums up last week for me, no wander the emotional body was so intense. I am finding as I have chosen to "remember" a year of my childhood that went missing, she now pops up regularly for recognition and healing. I am very proud to be part of her now - at last. and so any time she has something to say, she is very welcome.


The book - well the book was just a trigger of feeling "unseen" - the lady could not see me past her own ego and that is not said with malice or dis - respect. She gave me a gift of healing - intentionally or not and I am grateful. I was angry at her for wanting to work from a place of power claiming to be able to "connect " people because that is not truth -


But I cannot save the world - what I can do though, is keep doing all those little things knowing that one day they will make big differences and that feels easy and perfect.


Just as the Angel grid was closing the Angels showed my my favorite place to be - I love just lying on the grass looking up at the sky, simply cloud watching. As this vision came I heard a famous saying -


"Be as the sky is to the clouds, the clouds drift by and the sky remains detached."


Bless you all for your gifts of love, support and nurturing - here is my gift to you -


I am very excited as I have organized - with some help from Sarah - a "google group" - what that means is that you can all email each other offering your support and services, your words of wisdom - you can ask for guidance from each other, you can post channeling, laughter, sunshine tears - this gift is yours - I will oversee and protect the space but it is yours -


"Within the wings" has been guided by the Angelic Realm to assist humanity to build up again a sense of community. In this community people are given freedom of "voice" and the space to be heard. Each person here is part of a whole - where we are all equal - caring and be responsible for others.


Here are the essentials:
* Group name: Within the Wings of Sanctuary of Angels
* Group home page: http://groups.google.com/group/withinthewings? hl=en
* Group email address withinthewings@googlegroups.com


So enjoy nurturing and supporting each other within the wings of Sanctuary of Angels and enjoy giving without expectations -


Sending you all my love


Michelle x x