Andria's Journey with the Angels ....

Angel Healing Course 2nd - 7th July 2007
Daily Journal

Day 1
Had butterflies in my tummy this morning, there is a part of me that is very nervous and afraid and another part is so excited and can’t wait to get started! I had this nervous feeling in my solar plexus on and off all day, it reminded me of when I was a child at school and felt inferior to others, always petrified that the teacher would ask me a question, sure I would never know the answer. I thought I was well and truly over this but there it was today! It always takes me a while to feel comfortable with strangers and I’m sure as the week goes on I will relax and be able to be me, I would love to be able to freely speak my truth without this inner fear (of being judged?).
We have had some beautiful meditations with the angels today and I am really enjoying the course content. Michelle feels that as a group we all have an issue with ‘self worth’ - spot on!!! I need and want to clear this. This evening I have meditated on this and asked the angels for guidance and support with this issue. I was given that I need to daily affirm that I love myself and understand that we are all equal - ‘one thing everywhere’


Day 2
I feel more confident today - no butterflies! I struggled with giving my first Angel card reading though, realizing that it is my own self-doubt and lack of self-trust that is blocking the energy. I felt like crying, I felt I just wasn’t getting anything, just a big empty nothing! Then something did come through, but, as in the past I get this feeling I am a bit of a fraud and every time something works out it’s a happy accident! I am letting go of this limiting and self-destructive belief here and now! I ask my highest angels to assist me in dissolving this illusion. I affirm that I open myself up to living life at my fullest potential, embracing my talents and gifts and loving myself and all that I am today.
We received our beautiful attunements from Michelle today, and I found it a very powerful experience. Michelle told me that I had clouds of self doubt and lack of trust hanging over my head, which is totally in line with what I have been feeling today.
I came home with a horrendous headache. I decided to meditate with the Sugilite crystal and asked the angels to assist me in releasing fear. During the meditation I saw myself standing on the very edge of a high clifftop, looking down at my toes, the sea far, far below me, twinkling blue. ‘Can you take this leap of faith?’ came the question, ‘or will you run away again through fear? Overcome this, have courage, trust. I jumped. And as I did I was overcome and overwhelmed as I was swept upwards and upwards. Huge majestic wings on my back took me soaring up into the beautiful heavens, a sparkling trail behind me...


Day 3
In bed writing this at 10.00pm and feeling very tired but content. Really enjoyed today, felt so much more confident and at ease in the group. Working with crystals and felt more comfortable with this. but aware that I feel quite clumsy at the moment, bit like learning to drive a car. I received the most beautiful Archangel Crystal Grid Healing from Bernice, which was all about balancing my masculine and feminine sides. I have felt very calm, clear, energised and happy in my heart this evening. We were given our crystal starter kit today, the crystals are so beautiful, each one so different, I love them!
We have been given an affirmation - “I see the magnificence in me!!”

Day 4
I feel as if something big has shifted today - hurrah! I feel a change, the clouds are dissolving and I feel clearer and much more confident and strong and more connected with the energy and what we are doing.
During a meditation focusing on the heart centre we were taken inside our hearts and mine was like a cage and there was a rather shabby looking bird, very frustrated, trying to get out, fluttering around. It was me...wanting to be free. I sent that bird so much love as I immediately opened the door to set it free, and off it flew, soaring upwards to the blue sky & heavenwards, becoming the most beautful white dove. My heart then became the most beautiful oasis, with the sounds of nature and water, a garden with pink bourganvillea growing all around and I sat and relaxed in the most comfortable hammock, feeling complete, in this loving tranquil, peaceful space. I walked out - leaving the door OPEN!
I am really starting to understand what it means to love yourself, I can feel a new me emerging, I know I don’t need or want to hide anymore, I want to be truly all that I am and do what I came here to do.
There has been so much self-doubt blocking me, and looking to other people for the answers - no more!
We learnt to channel the Angelic energy for healing today and it was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. I felt as if my heart centre was just opening and opening, I felt myself go higher than the clouds and pure white love energy pouring out of me, it was truly divine. All our eyes were sparkling!

Day 5
It seems like every day I write in in here and say I feel different, well today I sense another change, a big one. I am feeling a strength I have not felt before coming from deep inside, a confidence there, an opening up of the real, real me. I love this feeling and I commit to carrying on this work, striving to be in my truth, always having the courage to speak it, walk it.
I am at last getting some clarity on what I need to do, but FIRST I HAVE HAD TO KNOW WHO I AM, and I know that may be a never-ending journey but at last I get it!! I am well and truly on that journey and I’m not getting off the conveyor belt now!
It has been an honour to share this week with five beautiful women, sharing their truths, their pain, their knowledge, their humour and their love. I will never forget them. I love them.
Today something powerful happened, Michelle took us on a journey to find our inner child and the beautiful angels were there too of course, guiding, protecting and loving us. I found me in a cold dark, dingy cellar, a very sad little six year old girl in my red and black dog tooth dress, beautiful blonde curls, sad brown eyes. I felt her pain in my heart and in my solar plexus. She said ‘Nobody listens to me, nobody hears me.’ I crouched down next to her, looked deep into her eyes with love and said ‘I will listen.’ Then I picked her up and hugged her, sending her unconditional love from my heart. My angel encircled us both with his huge protective wings and a sphere of golden light. Little Andria kind of melted into me and became part of me. I have given her what she needed, she has been heard, I now have my voice, it has strength,
When I recounted what had happened to Michelle and the group I was overcome with immense pain and sadness abut not being heard and not being given what I needed. It was so empowering to really feel this and then let it go, I cried and cried, feeling so safe in the group to do this. Thank you Michelle for supporting and guiding me through that powerful healing experience, it has been transformative.

Day 6
I have just got home at the end of this the final day of our Angel Healing Course. I cried tears of joy on the way home as I have found me! This has been the most beautiful journey, I have found my own personal connection with God and the angels and have experienced God within me. I can hardly believe I am here writing these words. So much has happened in just six days. We, the group have all courageously stripped away layers and bared our souls, discovering our authentic selves. Each person unique and beautiful, I feel honoured to have been part of their journey. I have felt so supported and nurtured which has enabled me to do this - ‘stand naked’ as it were before others, it has been so empowering and liberating, I have never before been able to do this, and the ‘old me’ would not have believed it possible!
As I wrote yesterday I have well and truly opened the door to my real self and am walking through it with strength and trust, going forward with my life being real, giving myself what I need and creating my life the way I want it to be, letting go of the fears, illusions and limiting beliefs that have restricted me in the past, and believing in miracles!! I am not the same peron I was on Monday, I am so much more, I see the magnificence in me.
Michelle is probably the first person I have ever actually met who really does walk her talk, she is profoundly wise, and I feel very blessed to have been able to spend this week with her in her beautiful home, it has changed my life. I do not want the course to end, but it must because I have exciting and important work to do being me and shining this light of truth & love for others.
xxxxx