Healing your inner child ....

Hi Michelle,
Thank You so much for this months Angelic Messages,not only was it a joy to read,I also identified with so much of it,or all of it actually :-)

I especially identified with your story of healing your inner child's hurt,and your Mother.I felt I was reading about myself,before I go on,I think it is so wonderful that you could be so open and honest with everyone who received this.How brave,is that the correct word?Maybe not,but I know you will know what I mean!

I too had little affection or love from my mother especially,and yes,it was abusive too.Foul language,angry fits.....getting hurt,smacking,shouting,swearing,the list is endless.
Yet,all these years,I'm 38 now,with 2 boys of my own, I have ignored it,choosing to delude myself that I do have a mother. But in reality,I don't.

Too many times have I made contact,or vise versa,and I have been excited,overjoyed at the new beginning I thought was ahead,and each time the fall becomes harder,and affects me more.And the more it affects me,the more it affects my boys,it has a ripple affect,just recently we had a day in town,coming home full of bubbling excitement,I told my partner(yet again)about the new start,how wonderful it would be to have a mother.....a real one. Full of sorrow,he told me not to delude myself again,it would not happen......it never does,he said,genuinely sad for me.
Of course,deep down I knew he was right,I just wouldn't admit to myself.

I too,like you,have had angry outbursts with my children,when I feel I have reacted over the top,shouting and using foul language,sounding just like my mum used to,displaying her learned behaviour,and been ashamed of myself afterwards.
The rest of the time I am a loving,caring person and mum,I am proud of the fact that I am nothing like my mum.
Until now,I would not have had the courage to admit this to anyone,but you openly saying it,has given me the courage to do so too.

And with that courage to admit it to you,I can finally admit it to me,now I can finally work through the releasing of it all,knowing that with each part I release,healing will come.
Of course,I know the Angels have led me to "happen" to find your site,and receive this issue,and they will be helping me all the way.

So,it is with much gratitude I thank you for your story,which has had such a profound "awakening" for me,I know it won't be easy,but it's all part of the journey,my journey, to a new,happier,more accepting, me.

I wish you many,many blessings,and thank you for taking the time to read this,for in writing,I have found relief,and release,

I look forward to becoming more involved with Sanctuary Of Angels,

Love & Rainbows
Janet x