Being Fully Human by Janette Hamilton

Hello Everyone,

I know I have been a bit quiet, I also realise that I others are going through the same things as me.. So thought it only fair I share too!
Since September lots of old issues have been raising there heads, To say that my Financial situation has been dire, is an under statement, But I have been remarkably calm about it.
My real issues have been around Self Worth, I have been struggling through it! . like I do, Not really wanting to bring my negativity into anyone else’s space, my belief in Thoughts and the power of the mind, I feel it always best not to share to much, say to much as it can bring others down.. I guess I just don’t want that responsibility. Or maybe its about my inability to receive. Who Knows! Lol..
I decided I would finally Take the bull by the horns and get some help! So I visited a colleague for some healing, Explained my problems in detail.. At this first meeting absolute clarity came upon me.. That my issues where all about the 9yr old me. I found this quite revealing as I felt I had put all of THAT! To bed. But oh NO!
You need a bit of background here, As a young child I was sexually abused by my grandfather a school janitor, and also my own primary school janitor, I was also raped by a older teenage boy during my 9th year, I have accepted I was a victim, and have forgiven and moved on, I believe that all this happened to help me be who I am.
A wonderful loving caring beautiful wise being of light.
So During my 9th year I shut down, My inner child locked herself away completely numb to the world. I have been working on myself for over 20years unlocking parts of me, But there are so many layers!!!! A girl needs a break!! Lol
My Self Worth issue has raised its head to teach me a lesson yet again! During that 9th year I found out that my special relationship with my grandfather was not so special, I was not his only girl! There were many others, I was just one of the masses..
So in teaching classes.. It appears this feeling has been raised, Why choose to work with me, I’m not so special, there are many others doing courses, Who do I think I am to Teach!!
So my healing sessions are unlocking this core feeling, this lack of value, I still have a lot of painful memories waiting to be released But now is the time for me to let them go, While going through my session this week amid all the pain and tears,, There was a vision of a young girl riding her bike.. around and around the block! Wind in her hair, carefree and happy, I am that girl.. But instead of around and around I’m heading forward with a job to do, To be of service to mankind, To be a beacon of light, To be a wayshower, My childhood experiences may have been painful, they stole from me, they stole joy, peace, happiness,value and self esteem, But I am not that child anymore.
I choose to see my worth, my value,
I choose to Be JOY, LOVE, HAPPINESS & PEACE. I choose to Teach,
To share with others with all of my Heart the joy of being fully human,
I choose to share my wisdom and talents with all those seeking truth, light, love and self worth. I choose to help others see their value and to be the light that they are.
I choose to help others find their talents and gifts and to let go of the story of their lives, and live in the moment. To be present in the NOW.!

Janette x