Still pushing your buttons ...

Are there people in your life that can still push your buttons?

You can be solid and centered, coming from a place of love and contentment, being YOU - feeling wonderful and then bang there it is just that one person that can push all the "wrong" buttons and instantly your whole mood and each moment for the next say half an hour until you have cooled down - can change!

Sound familiar - for me it is my mother - in - law.

I don't know how she does it and my husband ensures me it is not intentional but sometimes ....

I am a woman in my own right - well, I am learning to be comfortable as a woman - my hips and thighs are definitely changing shape and I have grown a bit of bust, so from that I can assume that I am entering a peaceful place with regards to womanhood, I guess I missed that bit out in puberty. The reasons for this are now clear and I so want to fit in this piece of puzzle and be feel completely comfortable in my own skin.

When I meditate now I can see the Goddess within me, last week I could only see her feet. She is growing stronger.

So is my mother - in - law pushing the wrong buttons - or are they the right ones? If I stop to think about it when she is around I feel powerless and insignificant - so much of her takes me back to that same vulnerability as a child - no voice, powerless.

She is being a mirror, showing me there is still more to do. For that I love her, whether she knows it or not, she is helping me to see that I still have work to do. I know that if I can remain in the same "space" of peace when she is visiting - then I will no longer being given my power away and the reflection will change.

I am cooling down quicker after she has gone - so that is a start. A while ago I would be spitting teeth for days!!!

Bit of a big one isn't it *smile*.

But achievable!!

The Goddess within is stirring - watch this space *smile*.