in the moment ...
Since the New Year I have been waiting for some fairly major surgery.
The waiting has not been hard, for it has allowed me to take a step back from many activities,deepen the practice the power of living in the moment and take some time to love and nurture me.
In March a lady called me and said she had heard about the proposed surgery and that she felt it would be beneficial for me to look on a site promoting psychic surgery.
To be honest I completely forgot as I did not have any Internet facilities.
On the 22nd of April I was going to attend a Goddess show in Brighton, I had a splitting headache and really did not feel like going but there was a deep feeling that it was important for me to rise above the headache and go.
On the drive to Brighton, I kept being given the name Gary. I do not know a Gary, so just let it go, knowing all would be revealed.
Well "Gary" was at the show doing a talk on Indigo Children and I sat and listened to this wonderful young man. Although I knew he had a gift to share with me, it was not the right time. Gary suggested I checked his website to see if and when he was available as he is not local to me.
Guess what - that following Sunday he was due to be holding a clinic in Steyning, only a five minute drive from me and there were spaces.
The day I booked my appointment with Gary, the hospital rang and cancelled my operation for the 15th of May, asking to postpone it to June.
I went to see Gary yesterday who works with his surgeon Guide "Abraham". Gary sweetly talked me through the "operation" as Abraham worked on me.
I have complete trust it has worked and why not - everything was meant to be. All the signs were there I just had to be conscious of the moment to be aware of them.
How many signs and how much guidance passes us by as our mind rattles on about yesterday, or tomorrow or next year. How many times do you drive somewhere or walk and then wonder how on earth you got there? Living our lives completely unconscious of the moment we are in.
Fogging our minds with fear and worry about a time that does not even exist - but this moment does.
I have to say living this way I am sooo happy and very free!!
My days bring me guided action - an urge to send an article to a newspaper and that night it is printed, a message to call someone and a gift is shared ... doors of oppurtunity flying open - because I am listening and taking action, the Angels know I trust and so send more - time is not wasted, I have plenty of time.
The Angels said this morning that the operation went well on a spirit level and it will take three days for the energy to reach the physical level - how cool is that.
So my beautiful friends I urge you to not measure time, what has been has been, if it needs healing, you will know, heal it, let it go - only deal with the past if it is essential to the healing of this moment - if not leave it where it is - do not dig where digging is not needed -
And the future - know your gaols, know what you DO WANT, do not spare a thought for that which you do not want, trust you will get where you want, the "how" will be shown to you - do not cloud the future with worry or fear or demands - it is not created yet -
Now live the moment - for in the moment you will receive the signs, the guidance, to assist you to your goals - your path will be smoother - only we measure time, not the Angels, there is plenty of time.
"We ask Dearest Children that you step out of the fog that you allow your thoughts to create - listen to your heart, for here is your truth - and here we will speak to you." Blessings - Your Angels x x
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Angel Experience Day
Hi Michelle
I hope you are enjoying this beautiful weather as much as we are!
Firstly, I wanted to say a deep thank you for the Angel Experience Day last weekend. It has really helped me already. I am finding it easier to take a step back when situations become difficult/fraught/tense and am beginning to gain some inner peace using the techniques you gave us. I'm very aware that it is a long path to fully facing, acknowledging and releasing/forgiving and now feel that with the Angels to guide and support me it will be a less difficult (though no shorter) path.
I also wanted to say that I hope your beautiful dog, LouLou (?), is on the road to recovery. A beautiful gentle soul if ever there was. Another lesson there for me too!! Anticipation of a fear is always negative and often blinds you to the real truth - that often the fear comes from inside.
Again, I have found your sharing of news/thoughts/experiences very powerful and emotional and think you are an amazing and brave person for being able to accept and forgive in the way that you have and do.
Again, many thanks.
Love and light
Lesley
I hope you are enjoying this beautiful weather as much as we are!
Firstly, I wanted to say a deep thank you for the Angel Experience Day last weekend. It has really helped me already. I am finding it easier to take a step back when situations become difficult/fraught/tense and am beginning to gain some inner peace using the techniques you gave us. I'm very aware that it is a long path to fully facing, acknowledging and releasing/forgiving and now feel that with the Angels to guide and support me it will be a less difficult (though no shorter) path.
I also wanted to say that I hope your beautiful dog, LouLou (?), is on the road to recovery. A beautiful gentle soul if ever there was. Another lesson there for me too!! Anticipation of a fear is always negative and often blinds you to the real truth - that often the fear comes from inside.
Again, I have found your sharing of news/thoughts/experiences very powerful and emotional and think you are an amazing and brave person for being able to accept and forgive in the way that you have and do.
Again, many thanks.
Love and light
Lesley
This moment ...
Today I spent a beautiful afternoon with my beloved friend Sarah. She had been finding it a little hard to fall into meditation due to situations and surroundings and as a result was blocking the gentle unfolding of her future.
We sat together in a sacred circle and I assisted to her to reach a place that has become essential to my daily living - inner peace.
It was a magical moment, when she opened her blue eyes as she had found that part of her that knows and is peace. A Master of Peace.
I wish to share those words with you, read them until you know them off by heart and take this practice into your daily life. Allow it to to assist you to remain centered and in alignment with your Higher Self. Use it often for the gifts it will bring to you are worth all the stars in the Heavens and more ....
For the first time find a place where you are comfortable and will not be interrupted, it does not have to be silent as noise will not be of any consequence to you but will assist you to reach this space within.
Focus on your breathing, following the breath in and out, in and out, allowing your body to relax.
Now focus on the sounds outside of where you are resting - as you hear a sound, label it and then let it go - ie, traffic, sirens, flying aircraft, birds, television, conversations ...
Now focus on the sounds within the room you are in or garden - a ticking clock, heating, the breeze ...
Now focus on the area around your body, the sound of your breath.
Now focus on the sound of your heart, feel it, hear it ...
Now focus on the other sounds within your body - the lungs as they pump the breath in and out, the blood rushing through your veins, the digestion of your stomach ..
Now allowing your body to guide you to a place within - an inner glow, a sense of stillness -
Nothing ness ... Rest here a while, this is YOU, the core of who you are.
Allow answers to come, allow what is just to simply be.
Now focus on the breath.
Now be aware of the surrounding sounds, be aware of who you are, where you are - you are this moment.
When I got home I was flicking through a book thinking of my friend and this page fell open -
Relax into the present moment. Do what you need to do in the present moment. Yours is not to worry about that which we call the future. That does not mean that you do not consider the consequences of each of your choices. Taking into account the consequences of your decisions is responsible choice. It means to create strongly in the present moment. Do not lose power over the what-ifs of your life. These are unlimited and endless. Keep your power in the now, in present time. Keep your power just in the day that you are living on the earth, and not on how to maneuver tomorrow.
Taken from a book worth reading - The seat of the soul by Gary Zukav.
We sat together in a sacred circle and I assisted to her to reach a place that has become essential to my daily living - inner peace.
It was a magical moment, when she opened her blue eyes as she had found that part of her that knows and is peace. A Master of Peace.
I wish to share those words with you, read them until you know them off by heart and take this practice into your daily life. Allow it to to assist you to remain centered and in alignment with your Higher Self. Use it often for the gifts it will bring to you are worth all the stars in the Heavens and more ....
For the first time find a place where you are comfortable and will not be interrupted, it does not have to be silent as noise will not be of any consequence to you but will assist you to reach this space within.
Focus on your breathing, following the breath in and out, in and out, allowing your body to relax.
Now focus on the sounds outside of where you are resting - as you hear a sound, label it and then let it go - ie, traffic, sirens, flying aircraft, birds, television, conversations ...
Now focus on the sounds within the room you are in or garden - a ticking clock, heating, the breeze ...
Now focus on the area around your body, the sound of your breath.
Now focus on the sound of your heart, feel it, hear it ...
Now focus on the other sounds within your body - the lungs as they pump the breath in and out, the blood rushing through your veins, the digestion of your stomach ..
Now allowing your body to guide you to a place within - an inner glow, a sense of stillness -
Nothing ness ... Rest here a while, this is YOU, the core of who you are.
Allow answers to come, allow what is just to simply be.
Now focus on the breath.
Now be aware of the surrounding sounds, be aware of who you are, where you are - you are this moment.
When I got home I was flicking through a book thinking of my friend and this page fell open -
Relax into the present moment. Do what you need to do in the present moment. Yours is not to worry about that which we call the future. That does not mean that you do not consider the consequences of each of your choices. Taking into account the consequences of your decisions is responsible choice. It means to create strongly in the present moment. Do not lose power over the what-ifs of your life. These are unlimited and endless. Keep your power in the now, in present time. Keep your power just in the day that you are living on the earth, and not on how to maneuver tomorrow.
Taken from a book worth reading - The seat of the soul by Gary Zukav.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
The right words at the right time
Dear Michelle,
I've been receiving your messages for quite a while now, but in the last couple of weeks your messages have been so incredible apt that I feel they have been specifically sent for me. Yesterday and today's thoughts on people pushing your buttons really jumped out at me, and the lesson on living for the moment too.
I have been living a lie for the best part of a year, not lying to anyone else but to myself, and only just recently realised how much resentment I was still holding on to. Today you wrote about being in a self-imposed jail and this is so so true about me and I felt I just wanted to write to you to let you know the positive effect your words have had on me.
I have a difficult day ahead of me tomorrow, I am facing a situation which I have been avoiding for many months but which I now know will be very cleansing and liberating. I will be meeting up with someone who I allowed to hurt me and I have held on to angry thoughts instead of being happy for the very many good times we had together. I will now be going to this meeting in a positive and happy frame of mind (and definitely living in the moment) instead of the dread and negativity I had been feeling before reading your words. I shall read them again before I go to bed tonight, and again in the morning.
Thank you so very much for sharing your wisdom and teachings with me.
With very best wishes,
Ingrid x
I've been receiving your messages for quite a while now, but in the last couple of weeks your messages have been so incredible apt that I feel they have been specifically sent for me. Yesterday and today's thoughts on people pushing your buttons really jumped out at me, and the lesson on living for the moment too.
I have been living a lie for the best part of a year, not lying to anyone else but to myself, and only just recently realised how much resentment I was still holding on to. Today you wrote about being in a self-imposed jail and this is so so true about me and I felt I just wanted to write to you to let you know the positive effect your words have had on me.
I have a difficult day ahead of me tomorrow, I am facing a situation which I have been avoiding for many months but which I now know will be very cleansing and liberating. I will be meeting up with someone who I allowed to hurt me and I have held on to angry thoughts instead of being happy for the very many good times we had together. I will now be going to this meeting in a positive and happy frame of mind (and definitely living in the moment) instead of the dread and negativity I had been feeling before reading your words. I shall read them again before I go to bed tonight, and again in the morning.
Thank you so very much for sharing your wisdom and teachings with me.
With very best wishes,
Ingrid x
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
What is the perfect family - without gravy?
Last night I was invited to my 16 year old son's school to watch the Year 11 students perform the work they had been doing towards their GCSE exams.
It was incredible performance of drama and music completely written and performed by these young people.
As incredible as it was, it was also thought provoking and I am sad to say - very sad.
The students put together different sketches of how they see life.
It made me think what have we done to these children?
Aggressive, disrespectful, materialistic may be what they are portrayed as being today but just take a moment to see life through a child's eyes and you will see that this children are wise and have not forgotten what life is about - and boy, do they crave life to be as it was designed to be in the beginning.
Their views on the government, crime, education, fame, the NHS to name a few but what struck most was their views on family life.
Scenes of the past where the mother stayed at home to raise the children, the children seemed happy, content, they had a stable life - the father was the bread winner and everything seemed solid - mealtimes were had as a family. Children were children with toys and had a mother dedicated to bringing up that family. The students showed a family sitting together over a meal, all talking and passing the gravy...
And then there were the scenes of today where the mother is out at work, mobile phone constantly ringing, microwave and convenience meals, no family meal sharing the day, not even a meal table, children with no emotional or social skills - just looking for the next material thing to compensate for a lack of mother - no father - single parent families, arguments from the strain and pressure of modern living - too busy to talk, the child rebelling because it's needs are not being met .....
Yes this is not every family of today and yes it was not all rosy back then but just watching a handful of 16 year old children performing "life" as they have experienced it so far, just showed me that something has gone very, very wrong.
Life has become "external" - the material house, the car, the high flying career - pressures from the government to get women out to work, things being so expensive they have to - and yet what about what really matters?
What about the children we had because we love children, what about all the promises we made to help them grow up to be emotionally stable people?
What about the vowels we took on our wedding day, why do we allow those wedding bells to go rusty?
What is the point of a large house if it is empty?
What is the perfect family - without gravy?
It was incredible performance of drama and music completely written and performed by these young people.
As incredible as it was, it was also thought provoking and I am sad to say - very sad.
The students put together different sketches of how they see life.
It made me think what have we done to these children?
Aggressive, disrespectful, materialistic may be what they are portrayed as being today but just take a moment to see life through a child's eyes and you will see that this children are wise and have not forgotten what life is about - and boy, do they crave life to be as it was designed to be in the beginning.
Their views on the government, crime, education, fame, the NHS to name a few but what struck most was their views on family life.
Scenes of the past where the mother stayed at home to raise the children, the children seemed happy, content, they had a stable life - the father was the bread winner and everything seemed solid - mealtimes were had as a family. Children were children with toys and had a mother dedicated to bringing up that family. The students showed a family sitting together over a meal, all talking and passing the gravy...
And then there were the scenes of today where the mother is out at work, mobile phone constantly ringing, microwave and convenience meals, no family meal sharing the day, not even a meal table, children with no emotional or social skills - just looking for the next material thing to compensate for a lack of mother - no father - single parent families, arguments from the strain and pressure of modern living - too busy to talk, the child rebelling because it's needs are not being met .....
Yes this is not every family of today and yes it was not all rosy back then but just watching a handful of 16 year old children performing "life" as they have experienced it so far, just showed me that something has gone very, very wrong.
Life has become "external" - the material house, the car, the high flying career - pressures from the government to get women out to work, things being so expensive they have to - and yet what about what really matters?
What about the children we had because we love children, what about all the promises we made to help them grow up to be emotionally stable people?
What about the vowels we took on our wedding day, why do we allow those wedding bells to go rusty?
What is the point of a large house if it is empty?
What is the perfect family - without gravy?
Inspiration for the day... from a friend, from a friend ...
The Garden
Pause, friend and read before you enter here
This vine-clad wall encloses holy ground.
Herein a mellowed garden dreamsaway the years,
Steeped in serene, sweet light and muted sound.
Herein tranquility and peace abide.
For God walks here at cool of evening-tide.
Pause, friend and strip from out your heart
All vanity, all bitterness, all hate:
Quench, for this hour, the fever of your fears.
Then, treading softly, pass within this gate.
There, where the ancient trees wait, hushes and dim,
May you find God, and walk awhile with Him.
Pearl Hiatt.
Pause, friend and read before you enter here
This vine-clad wall encloses holy ground.
Herein a mellowed garden dreamsaway the years,
Steeped in serene, sweet light and muted sound.
Herein tranquility and peace abide.
For God walks here at cool of evening-tide.
Pause, friend and strip from out your heart
All vanity, all bitterness, all hate:
Quench, for this hour, the fever of your fears.
Then, treading softly, pass within this gate.
There, where the ancient trees wait, hushes and dim,
May you find God, and walk awhile with Him.
Pearl Hiatt.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Re - Still pushing your buttons
Hi Michelle,
I read this & smiled because it's so true, why well...
Work has been really tough recently several people have been made redundant & those of us left are quite sure how we are going to manage & the atmosphere has been really negative. I try not to get sucked into it but it is difficult to eb up beat when everyone is so down & deep inside you are feeling unsure, uncertain and not 'good enough' what ever that is. On Satuday when I was at my crystal course we were doing some sensing with some lavender quartz and a poem I knew from a long time came back to me line by line
You took away all the oceans & all the room
You gave me my shoe-size in earth with bars around it
Where did it get you? Nowhere.
You left me my lips, and they shape words, even in silence
by Osip Mandlestam
I had a real sense that even with everything stripped away there was this divine inner light within up that cannot be extinguished, it seemed to me at the time that it was showing me that even if you take away everything there is an inner light that shines brightly. I didn't realise that I was being shown that I was creating my own prison, thank you to you & the angels for helping me to see the message!
Love & light
Carol
xxx
I read this & smiled because it's so true, why well...
Work has been really tough recently several people have been made redundant & those of us left are quite sure how we are going to manage & the atmosphere has been really negative. I try not to get sucked into it but it is difficult to eb up beat when everyone is so down & deep inside you are feeling unsure, uncertain and not 'good enough' what ever that is. On Satuday when I was at my crystal course we were doing some sensing with some lavender quartz and a poem I knew from a long time came back to me line by line
You took away all the oceans & all the room
You gave me my shoe-size in earth with bars around it
Where did it get you? Nowhere.
You left me my lips, and they shape words, even in silence
by Osip Mandlestam
I had a real sense that even with everything stripped away there was this divine inner light within up that cannot be extinguished, it seemed to me at the time that it was showing me that even if you take away everything there is an inner light that shines brightly. I didn't realise that I was being shown that I was creating my own prison, thank you to you & the angels for helping me to see the message!
Love & light
Carol
xxx
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
The message is in the moment ...
I have written to you before about the importance of living in the moment - you cannot change the past, you can only digest it, learn from it and move one - it is insane to worry about the future, unless there is a positive action that you can do today to assist the future, then do not waste time with worry.
When you can be aware of the moment the Angels and the Universe are able to bring you messages of guidance that can help you heal - creating a positive future - this is not wasted time. This is taking guided action, leaving you with plenty of time, that you did not realise you had to play!
These messages do not necessarily have to be received during meditation they can be in the form of synchronicity, a moment of inspiration, a book that falls open to a page written just for you, a phone call from a friend and so on....
If you are not in this moment, these messages will pass you by ... and so will life.
Yesterday I wrote about allowing others to push your buttons. I then sat down to have a well deserved cup of tea with a book I have just ordered, it naturally fell open to this page, bringing a smile. I would like to share it with you ...
As long as you feel you have behaviours you cannot change,
you will be in a prison whenever anyone pushes one of your "buttons".
Your options will diminish. If you are angry, jealous or resentful enough, you will have no options at all. Until you change the part of your personality that reacts when it is frightened with anger, jealousy, or resentment you will remain in prison.
The next time you feel an impulse to engage in behaviour you think you cannot change, imagine that you are about to put yourself in a jail. If instead you choose to think, speak or act differently, imagine you are walking away from jail.
Begin to observe when you put yourself in jail and when you choose to set yourself free.
This is taken from a book called the Self - empowerment Journal by Gary Zukav and Linda Francis. It might just be well worth a read *smile*.
When you can be aware of the moment the Angels and the Universe are able to bring you messages of guidance that can help you heal - creating a positive future - this is not wasted time. This is taking guided action, leaving you with plenty of time, that you did not realise you had to play!
These messages do not necessarily have to be received during meditation they can be in the form of synchronicity, a moment of inspiration, a book that falls open to a page written just for you, a phone call from a friend and so on....
If you are not in this moment, these messages will pass you by ... and so will life.
Yesterday I wrote about allowing others to push your buttons. I then sat down to have a well deserved cup of tea with a book I have just ordered, it naturally fell open to this page, bringing a smile. I would like to share it with you ...
As long as you feel you have behaviours you cannot change,
you will be in a prison whenever anyone pushes one of your "buttons".
Your options will diminish. If you are angry, jealous or resentful enough, you will have no options at all. Until you change the part of your personality that reacts when it is frightened with anger, jealousy, or resentment you will remain in prison.
The next time you feel an impulse to engage in behaviour you think you cannot change, imagine that you are about to put yourself in a jail. If instead you choose to think, speak or act differently, imagine you are walking away from jail.
Begin to observe when you put yourself in jail and when you choose to set yourself free.
This is taken from a book called the Self - empowerment Journal by Gary Zukav and Linda Francis. It might just be well worth a read *smile*.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Inspirational words of the day ...
You don't write because you want to say something, you write because you've got something to say.
F. Scott Fitzgerald, 1896-1940, American Author
F. Scott Fitzgerald, 1896-1940, American Author
Still pushing your buttons ...
Are there people in your life that can still push your buttons?
You can be solid and centered, coming from a place of love and contentment, being YOU - feeling wonderful and then bang there it is just that one person that can push all the "wrong" buttons and instantly your whole mood and each moment for the next say half an hour until you have cooled down - can change!
Sound familiar - for me it is my mother - in - law.
I don't know how she does it and my husband ensures me it is not intentional but sometimes ....
I am a woman in my own right - well, I am learning to be comfortable as a woman - my hips and thighs are definitely changing shape and I have grown a bit of bust, so from that I can assume that I am entering a peaceful place with regards to womanhood, I guess I missed that bit out in puberty. The reasons for this are now clear and I so want to fit in this piece of puzzle and be feel completely comfortable in my own skin.
When I meditate now I can see the Goddess within me, last week I could only see her feet. She is growing stronger.
So is my mother - in - law pushing the wrong buttons - or are they the right ones? If I stop to think about it when she is around I feel powerless and insignificant - so much of her takes me back to that same vulnerability as a child - no voice, powerless.
She is being a mirror, showing me there is still more to do. For that I love her, whether she knows it or not, she is helping me to see that I still have work to do. I know that if I can remain in the same "space" of peace when she is visiting - then I will no longer being given my power away and the reflection will change.
I am cooling down quicker after she has gone - so that is a start. A while ago I would be spitting teeth for days!!!
Bit of a big one isn't it *smile*.
But achievable!!
The Goddess within is stirring - watch this space *smile*.
You can be solid and centered, coming from a place of love and contentment, being YOU - feeling wonderful and then bang there it is just that one person that can push all the "wrong" buttons and instantly your whole mood and each moment for the next say half an hour until you have cooled down - can change!
Sound familiar - for me it is my mother - in - law.
I don't know how she does it and my husband ensures me it is not intentional but sometimes ....
I am a woman in my own right - well, I am learning to be comfortable as a woman - my hips and thighs are definitely changing shape and I have grown a bit of bust, so from that I can assume that I am entering a peaceful place with regards to womanhood, I guess I missed that bit out in puberty. The reasons for this are now clear and I so want to fit in this piece of puzzle and be feel completely comfortable in my own skin.
When I meditate now I can see the Goddess within me, last week I could only see her feet. She is growing stronger.
So is my mother - in - law pushing the wrong buttons - or are they the right ones? If I stop to think about it when she is around I feel powerless and insignificant - so much of her takes me back to that same vulnerability as a child - no voice, powerless.
She is being a mirror, showing me there is still more to do. For that I love her, whether she knows it or not, she is helping me to see that I still have work to do. I know that if I can remain in the same "space" of peace when she is visiting - then I will no longer being given my power away and the reflection will change.
I am cooling down quicker after she has gone - so that is a start. A while ago I would be spitting teeth for days!!!
Bit of a big one isn't it *smile*.
But achievable!!
The Goddess within is stirring - watch this space *smile*.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Acceptance
Clearly what is meant to be IS.
The peace is always in that.
Gangaji
Over the past four months, the healing and learning process for me has come in thick and fast – But who am I to complain – when Archangel Azrael held his hand out to me before Christmas and asked “Are you ready” –my reply was “yes.”
I have learnt that although I had an essence of “self love” for myself, there was not an element of nurturing – of being my own mother. The gift of a baby, however brief that visit was, taught me this – an awareness of foods, an awareness of when my body needed to rest, the gift of fresh flowers by my bed, listening to soft, sweet music – I became my own mother. I loved parts of my body as never before – so much so that my hips and thighs seem to have taken a more fuller shape *smile* – And so the wounded child within felt safe to reveal herself and speak.
The rest we have already spoken of and I thank you with all my heart for listening to my words. To speak out to you and receive so much love and support back, was part of my greatest healing. I am blessed to have you all in my life as in return I pray my sharing of lessons over the past four years has blessed you.
The next step following “speaking out” I believe is the key I have been waiting for. A key that has removed the layers that no longer fit but also unlocked doors that have revealed such wonderful treasure.
The key is Acceptance.
The little girl who still hid away inside of me , all those years ago had took herself out of her body and denied all that was happening to her and around her. That denial remained within her for the next thirty odd years. A pattern of - any pain, hide it, deny it.
A pattern of not accepting any life situation that appeared “bad” or threatening – hide it – deny it.
Until now!! No sooner had I accepted the past and all that the “little girl” had to show me – with no ifs, buts or maybes, no excuses, no analysis, no who’s fault it was … I was given freedom!
It is no use to deny a situation or to fight against – what IS, be it current or past. The energy through the denial or even struggle against what IS, will only cause the current situation to last longer, creating a feeling of “no way out”, no clarity, no hope, no change. The cycle of life will not be able to move to the next cycle because there is no acceptance of what IS.
If it is non – acceptance from the past, it becomes an energy blockage resulting in constant patterns in your life of situations or people that bring out those same denied feelings. And they will come up again and again and again...
By accepting a life situation you are not “giving up” or blessing bad actions or behaviour of others or the situation you see as negative and painful - lack of money, stagnant career, relationship friction … BUT neither are you denying they DO exist be it in your past or your present. You are simply accepting what IS.
Life is a cycle of ups and downs. Everything and everyone has a cycle – the rotation of the planet, nature, the seasons, crops, the ocean, women, interest rates, businesses, the stock market – all have a high, all have a low.
We need the low to rest, to bring forth change, to discover what we do want to feel, have and experience. The lows will come making way for the new – no matter what. Even the rich, the wealthy and the most enlightened masters experience a “low”.
All lows bring a high and if you stop for a moment and be honest with yourself, you will see that at the end of your darkest times there has then been great light.
The high times, the great times move fast, they simply flow – they are joyfilled moments. The low times can move just as fast, if there is acceptance of what IS.
The low times linger because people either completely deny it is happening or allow themselves to get “wrapped up” in the negativity of it all – the drama, the discomfort, the want for something better. There may be a battle of trying to find solutions to solve this low time rather than letting it flow. Your mind may become obsessive about “the problem” and see this as your identity. This is the ego at work not your Higher Self. This is often when illness creeps in, even depression, literally forcing you to rest, to restrain you from action, so that you stop “doing” and just let life be.
We all know that if you fight against something or force a situation, it will just grow in energy from this power struggle. Mother Therese is often quoted as she stated that she would not “walk” against war but she would “walk” for peace.
And denial will just leave it stagnant in your body to feed an old pattern or even create a new one.
The sooner you accept what IS, the sooner you will receive peace, clarity and guided action. You will have entered the moment and allowed yourself to flow with life. You will have freedom from time and be ready to move on to the next cycle.
Just sit for a while in this already perfect world – the blue skies, the rich grass, the warm sun – Mother Nature just simply flowing with life, in and out of the different cycles as they come and go – no attachment, no denial, no struggling or force. Just divine, peaceful, acceptance.
Those childhood memories that were denied and so deeply hidden from the truth – have now been remembered, accepted, forgotten and let go of. My present is healed from the past and my future is freedom.
The peace is always in that.
Gangaji
Over the past four months, the healing and learning process for me has come in thick and fast – But who am I to complain – when Archangel Azrael held his hand out to me before Christmas and asked “Are you ready” –my reply was “yes.”
I have learnt that although I had an essence of “self love” for myself, there was not an element of nurturing – of being my own mother. The gift of a baby, however brief that visit was, taught me this – an awareness of foods, an awareness of when my body needed to rest, the gift of fresh flowers by my bed, listening to soft, sweet music – I became my own mother. I loved parts of my body as never before – so much so that my hips and thighs seem to have taken a more fuller shape *smile* – And so the wounded child within felt safe to reveal herself and speak.
The rest we have already spoken of and I thank you with all my heart for listening to my words. To speak out to you and receive so much love and support back, was part of my greatest healing. I am blessed to have you all in my life as in return I pray my sharing of lessons over the past four years has blessed you.
The next step following “speaking out” I believe is the key I have been waiting for. A key that has removed the layers that no longer fit but also unlocked doors that have revealed such wonderful treasure.
The key is Acceptance.
The little girl who still hid away inside of me , all those years ago had took herself out of her body and denied all that was happening to her and around her. That denial remained within her for the next thirty odd years. A pattern of - any pain, hide it, deny it.
A pattern of not accepting any life situation that appeared “bad” or threatening – hide it – deny it.
Until now!! No sooner had I accepted the past and all that the “little girl” had to show me – with no ifs, buts or maybes, no excuses, no analysis, no who’s fault it was … I was given freedom!
It is no use to deny a situation or to fight against – what IS, be it current or past. The energy through the denial or even struggle against what IS, will only cause the current situation to last longer, creating a feeling of “no way out”, no clarity, no hope, no change. The cycle of life will not be able to move to the next cycle because there is no acceptance of what IS.
If it is non – acceptance from the past, it becomes an energy blockage resulting in constant patterns in your life of situations or people that bring out those same denied feelings. And they will come up again and again and again...
By accepting a life situation you are not “giving up” or blessing bad actions or behaviour of others or the situation you see as negative and painful - lack of money, stagnant career, relationship friction … BUT neither are you denying they DO exist be it in your past or your present. You are simply accepting what IS.
Life is a cycle of ups and downs. Everything and everyone has a cycle – the rotation of the planet, nature, the seasons, crops, the ocean, women, interest rates, businesses, the stock market – all have a high, all have a low.
We need the low to rest, to bring forth change, to discover what we do want to feel, have and experience. The lows will come making way for the new – no matter what. Even the rich, the wealthy and the most enlightened masters experience a “low”.
All lows bring a high and if you stop for a moment and be honest with yourself, you will see that at the end of your darkest times there has then been great light.
The high times, the great times move fast, they simply flow – they are joyfilled moments. The low times can move just as fast, if there is acceptance of what IS.
The low times linger because people either completely deny it is happening or allow themselves to get “wrapped up” in the negativity of it all – the drama, the discomfort, the want for something better. There may be a battle of trying to find solutions to solve this low time rather than letting it flow. Your mind may become obsessive about “the problem” and see this as your identity. This is the ego at work not your Higher Self. This is often when illness creeps in, even depression, literally forcing you to rest, to restrain you from action, so that you stop “doing” and just let life be.
We all know that if you fight against something or force a situation, it will just grow in energy from this power struggle. Mother Therese is often quoted as she stated that she would not “walk” against war but she would “walk” for peace.
And denial will just leave it stagnant in your body to feed an old pattern or even create a new one.
The sooner you accept what IS, the sooner you will receive peace, clarity and guided action. You will have entered the moment and allowed yourself to flow with life. You will have freedom from time and be ready to move on to the next cycle.
Just sit for a while in this already perfect world – the blue skies, the rich grass, the warm sun – Mother Nature just simply flowing with life, in and out of the different cycles as they come and go – no attachment, no denial, no struggling or force. Just divine, peaceful, acceptance.
Those childhood memories that were denied and so deeply hidden from the truth – have now been remembered, accepted, forgotten and let go of. My present is healed from the past and my future is freedom.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Thought for the day ...
The past is history.
The future is a mystery.
But right now is a gift -
which is why it is called the present.
Live the moment - Happy Easter!!
The future is a mystery.
But right now is a gift -
which is why it is called the present.
Live the moment - Happy Easter!!
Your comments ...
Dear Michelle
After reading your recent email I felt that I had to write to you. We’ve never had the pleasure of meeting but I gratefully receive your emails and newletters on a regular basis.
I firstly wanted to thank you for the honesty that you showed in your message. It takes a lot of courage and trust to share such information, and without wanting to sound corny about things, I salute you for what you did.
I also have had similar experiences to yourself. I was sexually abused once when I was a teenager and have recently experienced the pain of a miscarriage. Whilst these events are undeniably painful and challenging, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and our task is to find that reason and to grow and learn from the experience, whether the experience be good or bad.
I think as well that the more spiritually aware and developed we become the tougher the life events we are faced with become. Unfortunately our soul learns far more from traumatic experiences than from everyday run of the mill ones. After all, how do you learn about fundamental lessons such as unconditional love unless you are tested to the limit. Perhaps unfair but true.
Anyway you don’t need me to tell you that the angelic kingdom is behind you supporting you every step of the way. I know that with their comfort, support and direction you’re going to come through this whole experience a lot stronger than you probably every thought possible.
Take care of yourself and God bless.
Sarah x
Dear Michelle,
Thank you for your email and for sharing such deep personal experiences with me. I agree that it is good to share what you have learnt with others and I appreciate your honesty.
I feel very humbled by your experiences, nothing that emotionally challenging has happened in my past (not that I'm aware of anyway), although I realise that something, even somewhat insignificant by comparison must have occurred, to instill the feelings of low self esteem/self worth that have arisen in me recently.
As always your email was timed perfectly for it's relevance to 'where I am' at the moment. I am currently reading 'The Journey' by Brandon Bays (I don't know if you have read it) after it being recommended to me by a family counsellor. I should briefly explain here why I have been seeing this counsellor (Liz). About 2 years ago my sister and myself embarked on a search for our brothers who are twins and were adopted as babies, as my mum and dad were very young and family pressure won out over their wish to keep them. We initiated the search through National Childrens Home and were assigned Liz as our counsellor to help steer as through things. From time to time at different stages of the search (we are now in regular contact with them) Liz has called me to see if I need to talk over anything. The last time she called I was just coming out of a bout of depression and my self esteem was really low, she suggested a meeting with her where we started to uncover some of my issues. Liz is currently taking a NLP course to be a practitioner and would like me to be a case study, she suggested I read The Journey, first. It talks a lot about buried emotions/ bad experiences and how these can remain locked in our cells memories, even though dealt with on a conscious level and a lot more, suddenly things are starting to make sense to me.
I think this is like what you were saying about yourself, you were guided to focus on a certain area which released hidden memories, that were affecting your life even though you were previously consciously unaware of them. Even though at times negative feelings would arise in you, at some level you were always aware of the cause (the pip).
Through reading this book I can now see where I need to go, within myself, when the discomfort/negative feelings/unwanted memory etc arise I have to immerse myself in them, find their centre (the book says find the peace inside them) and experience them, a layer at a time until I can forgive and let go. Like you said it will be painful at times, the difference is now I'm not that scared to try and face my demons, a little at a time.
Sometimes I think I haven't come very far, but then I look back at the person I was 5 or 6 years ago and I realise that I've travelled quite a distance in that time on a spiritual level. There have been highs and lows but I understand things a lot more now, helped by the 'teachers' I have met along the way (like yourself) who have always been willing to share their truth with me. I hope someday to be able to do the same for someone else.
In your words I have found confirmation that events occur for a reason, encouragement to continue to believe, that the angels are watching and guiding us and to trust, no matter what happens. I am truly grateful for your frankness and sharing your truth. Who you are always comes across in your newsletters very well, and that is good, I believe that it is best to always show totally who you are; although I have been hesitant with some people to do that myself recently, for fear of ridicule etc. When I do trust however, I have been surprised by their reactions which have been positive or at least interested in what I've had to say.
Thanks once again.
Warmest wishes
Love June
Michelle I bow down to you and your admirable strength! What you have been through Not only in these past few months but your whole life is above and beyond.
Your courage
To not only face this full on but deal with it and then let it go all the while sending your Love is the greatest lesson you have taught me. You really are walking your talk.
You have given me the most amazing ray of hope that I can get up out of the sad lull I am In. I have been lost, grasping for reasons. Looking all around when I really needed to look at the real me, my core. I had forgotten how important it was to send love to my bad memories or thoughts of myself. Always blanking out certain bits cause they are just to soul destroying to handle.
You have proved that everything happens for a reason, everything a lesson.
You can achieve such perfection with oneself. That’s my goal… but you need to dig a lot deeper.
Once again at the right time in my life I open my email and you have written your truth.
This in turn totally makes my world make sense. Amazing ! It is so time for me to face My truth. Thankyou! I wish I could put you in my pocket, like my own personal guide Book! An angel in my pocket.
Thankyou to the angels for sending me into your path.
Love and light
Tara xxxxxxxxx
After reading your recent email I felt that I had to write to you. We’ve never had the pleasure of meeting but I gratefully receive your emails and newletters on a regular basis.
I firstly wanted to thank you for the honesty that you showed in your message. It takes a lot of courage and trust to share such information, and without wanting to sound corny about things, I salute you for what you did.
I also have had similar experiences to yourself. I was sexually abused once when I was a teenager and have recently experienced the pain of a miscarriage. Whilst these events are undeniably painful and challenging, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and our task is to find that reason and to grow and learn from the experience, whether the experience be good or bad.
I think as well that the more spiritually aware and developed we become the tougher the life events we are faced with become. Unfortunately our soul learns far more from traumatic experiences than from everyday run of the mill ones. After all, how do you learn about fundamental lessons such as unconditional love unless you are tested to the limit. Perhaps unfair but true.
Anyway you don’t need me to tell you that the angelic kingdom is behind you supporting you every step of the way. I know that with their comfort, support and direction you’re going to come through this whole experience a lot stronger than you probably every thought possible.
Take care of yourself and God bless.
Sarah x
Dear Michelle,
Thank you for your email and for sharing such deep personal experiences with me. I agree that it is good to share what you have learnt with others and I appreciate your honesty.
I feel very humbled by your experiences, nothing that emotionally challenging has happened in my past (not that I'm aware of anyway), although I realise that something, even somewhat insignificant by comparison must have occurred, to instill the feelings of low self esteem/self worth that have arisen in me recently.
As always your email was timed perfectly for it's relevance to 'where I am' at the moment. I am currently reading 'The Journey' by Brandon Bays (I don't know if you have read it) after it being recommended to me by a family counsellor. I should briefly explain here why I have been seeing this counsellor (Liz). About 2 years ago my sister and myself embarked on a search for our brothers who are twins and were adopted as babies, as my mum and dad were very young and family pressure won out over their wish to keep them. We initiated the search through National Childrens Home and were assigned Liz as our counsellor to help steer as through things. From time to time at different stages of the search (we are now in regular contact with them) Liz has called me to see if I need to talk over anything. The last time she called I was just coming out of a bout of depression and my self esteem was really low, she suggested a meeting with her where we started to uncover some of my issues. Liz is currently taking a NLP course to be a practitioner and would like me to be a case study, she suggested I read The Journey, first. It talks a lot about buried emotions/ bad experiences and how these can remain locked in our cells memories, even though dealt with on a conscious level and a lot more, suddenly things are starting to make sense to me.
I think this is like what you were saying about yourself, you were guided to focus on a certain area which released hidden memories, that were affecting your life even though you were previously consciously unaware of them. Even though at times negative feelings would arise in you, at some level you were always aware of the cause (the pip).
Through reading this book I can now see where I need to go, within myself, when the discomfort/negative feelings/unwanted memory etc arise I have to immerse myself in them, find their centre (the book says find the peace inside them) and experience them, a layer at a time until I can forgive and let go. Like you said it will be painful at times, the difference is now I'm not that scared to try and face my demons, a little at a time.
Sometimes I think I haven't come very far, but then I look back at the person I was 5 or 6 years ago and I realise that I've travelled quite a distance in that time on a spiritual level. There have been highs and lows but I understand things a lot more now, helped by the 'teachers' I have met along the way (like yourself) who have always been willing to share their truth with me. I hope someday to be able to do the same for someone else.
In your words I have found confirmation that events occur for a reason, encouragement to continue to believe, that the angels are watching and guiding us and to trust, no matter what happens. I am truly grateful for your frankness and sharing your truth. Who you are always comes across in your newsletters very well, and that is good, I believe that it is best to always show totally who you are; although I have been hesitant with some people to do that myself recently, for fear of ridicule etc. When I do trust however, I have been surprised by their reactions which have been positive or at least interested in what I've had to say.
Thanks once again.
Warmest wishes
Love June
Michelle I bow down to you and your admirable strength! What you have been through Not only in these past few months but your whole life is above and beyond.
Your courage
To not only face this full on but deal with it and then let it go all the while sending your Love is the greatest lesson you have taught me. You really are walking your talk.
You have given me the most amazing ray of hope that I can get up out of the sad lull I am In. I have been lost, grasping for reasons. Looking all around when I really needed to look at the real me, my core. I had forgotten how important it was to send love to my bad memories or thoughts of myself. Always blanking out certain bits cause they are just to soul destroying to handle.
You have proved that everything happens for a reason, everything a lesson.
You can achieve such perfection with oneself. That’s my goal… but you need to dig a lot deeper.
Once again at the right time in my life I open my email and you have written your truth.
This in turn totally makes my world make sense. Amazing ! It is so time for me to face My truth. Thankyou! I wish I could put you in my pocket, like my own personal guide Book! An angel in my pocket.
Thankyou to the angels for sending me into your path.
Love and light
Tara xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Responses re - Your greatest challenge,,,
Dear Michelle,
Thank you for sharing with us your healing story on your latest newsletters. It's going to sound strange but I found it a joy to read despite the events outlined. A joy because it was an honour to hear you write from the heart, because it was inspirational in the strength and courage and sheer loving forgivness you have displayed and there is hope that others who have had similar experiences can also find this in themselves as you have done. It reminded me that if we want to really heal the world we start with one, ourselves and if we can heal ourselves anything can be achieved.
Much love and light, always,
Jacquie
Hi Michelle, it's Daila...It has been a long time...I just wanted to thank you for sharing that part of your life with us! It is a great teaching, about humility and great love and trust!! Thanks!!!
love
Daila
Michelle,
your e-mail moved me to tears and I salute your wholehearted bravery, to share such pain with your friends means more than anything to those friends.
you are obviously going through the greatest cleansing practice of your life
- you will rise 'like the Phoenix' - full of love, strength, and compassion.
you already have so many of those qualities, and more, that is so obvious to all who have dealings with you.
So thank you Michelle, i feel privileged to have had this information from you. I hope the whole experience makes you a lot stronger and more confident in your undoubted abilities. and that the whole of your life is filled with love and laughter - you deserve it.
Love
HelenDear Michelle
Thank you for having the courage to share your story with your readers. Know that you are loved. You are a beautiful soul and an inspiration to us all. Bless you.
In light and love,
Mitzi
Mitzi Reed
NV Holistic Chamber of Commerce
www.nvhcc.com
Thank you for sharing with us your healing story on your latest newsletters. It's going to sound strange but I found it a joy to read despite the events outlined. A joy because it was an honour to hear you write from the heart, because it was inspirational in the strength and courage and sheer loving forgivness you have displayed and there is hope that others who have had similar experiences can also find this in themselves as you have done. It reminded me that if we want to really heal the world we start with one, ourselves and if we can heal ourselves anything can be achieved.
Much love and light, always,
Jacquie
Hi Michelle, it's Daila...It has been a long time...I just wanted to thank you for sharing that part of your life with us! It is a great teaching, about humility and great love and trust!! Thanks!!!
love
Daila
Michelle,
your e-mail moved me to tears and I salute your wholehearted bravery, to share such pain with your friends means more than anything to those friends.
you are obviously going through the greatest cleansing practice of your life
- you will rise 'like the Phoenix' - full of love, strength, and compassion.
you already have so many of those qualities, and more, that is so obvious to all who have dealings with you.
So thank you Michelle, i feel privileged to have had this information from you. I hope the whole experience makes you a lot stronger and more confident in your undoubted abilities. and that the whole of your life is filled with love and laughter - you deserve it.
Love
HelenDear Michelle
Thank you for having the courage to share your story with your readers. Know that you are loved. You are a beautiful soul and an inspiration to us all. Bless you.
In light and love,
Mitzi
Mitzi Reed
NV Holistic Chamber of Commerce
www.nvhcc.com
Your greatest challenge is your greatest healing.
Since yesterday I have found that I have a strong urge to write to you about my recent experiences that have meant I have spent "time off" from Sanctuary of Angels since December. I do not know why I have held back, although writing that now seems like a contradiction - I always write to you all about what is going on in my life, the lesson learnt - in hope that in sharing my truth you will find healing for yourself. I guess I have held back because of my own issues - I understand now that if I was not to share my all with you a)our relationship would not be as honest as it has been since you subscribed to Sanctuary of Angels and b) there would be little point in learning what I am learning, if I am not going to share.
All you may read now be a little long winded as I am still experiencing a purification period but please bear with me and you will understand my writing to you.
On the 2nd of January I was taken into hospital with severe abdominal pain. On arrival I was told I had a cyst the size of a fist which was causing pain as it had attached itself to the "pouch" I had made in 2001 in replacement for my large intestines. I was also told I was pregnant!
The doctors insisted that the pregnancy was ectopic and I was to take medication to abort it - I refused - the Angels told me my baby was safe and only 3 weeks pregnant - 2 weeks before the average woman "knows", I had already made a connection with this soul. And so I trusted my truth and went against family opinions and the doctors. A real strength came from this - listening and trusting myself against people who thought they knew what was best.
At 6 weeks a baby was found in the womb - it was not ectopic!
During this time before I went to sleep I found myself sending love and healing to my womb, my ovaries, the baby - my womanhood, all the parts of my body that I had not really accepted let alone loved. I was loving and nurturing my body and looking after me.
This started to cause disturbing visions to come forth, that matched a "feeling" I had carried with me for as long as I could remember but the feeling never had a label or memory attached to it - of being sexually abused as a very young child by my father and mother - something that I had completely blanked out of my memory. I found it hard to accept this as truth - and kept on pushing it aside but still the visions came.
At 9 weeks I had a scan to check the baby and the cyst - the baby had no heartbeat. After the shock and tears - I spent some time silent with the Angels and I was told that this soul had visited for a brief time to teach me a new level of self love and acceptance. I was asked to not give up and to keep on loving and nurturing my body - I was told that the soul had awoken memories in me that I needed to remember, accept and forgive - I would then awaken the Goddess within. It was essential to my spiritual growth to learn of this compassion and power. It was essential for me to feel comfortable in my own skin and for my emotions to be consistent for my work on this earthplane - no matter what.
Three weeks ago my brother returned home from Canada after four years, he was not well at all - since Christmas he had been having awful flashbacks of being sexually abused by my mother. Although I felt anger and grief for the pain that I could see in him, there was also relief - what I had been seeing and feeling was truth.
A lot has happened in a short period of time. I have had to try and accept what happened which has been hard - a child has unconditional love for a parent so to accept that I am right and my parents were wrong has been a challenge. But if someone was abusing my children would anything they said as a form of an excuse be acceptable - no - then that behavior - that pattern is no longer acceptable for me, no matter who started it.
What this has showed me is that although I was living a spiritual life of love, peace and joy, there was a part of me (a tiny "pip") that would arise now and again - so angry, so sad and seem to disrupt my life and who I choose to be - there was a part of me that thought it was acceptable to be treated by others in a abusive manner and felt unworthy of life's gifts - this part of me was so forgotten and hidden that I could not explain why this anger would rise or why I was still allowing abusive relationships in my life. My life was not consistent as I wanted it to be and now I know why.
I am truly grateful that this is all happening, so I may release myself from all that no longer is and be who I choose to be - complete and whole, a Goddess, not a princess waiting in her locked room for her Knight anymore. I have clarity now as to how I may complete the jigsaw.
You see, when you can heal that hidden part of you that thinks it is acceptable for your life situation and relationships to be as they are, you will understand how and why the pattern started, you can than forgive and let go of it - your relationships in your life will then either have to change or leave - for the healing would have been done. The view in the mirror will change!
This is already happening for me as each day I accept a little more, forgive a little more and love myself a bit more - I am sharing my truth, speaking out! I know that life can change and will change for you. The journey begins within!!
I cannot say it does not hurt - it does - But there are lessons in this pain, that are worth learning, there are lessons in this pain that will manifest the life I desire of love, peace, joy and abundance, a life that will be consistent and in alignment with who I am. Moving through the pain rather than hiding it, is the power of healing.
Your greatest challenge is your greatest healing - wise words and so very, very true.
I hope you have found healing in my words - if anything I now know that my relationship with you can now continue to be honest, I felt like I was holding back to people who trust me and know me inside out - nothing hidden. I am who I am.
Love and Blessings
Michelle x
All you may read now be a little long winded as I am still experiencing a purification period but please bear with me and you will understand my writing to you.
On the 2nd of January I was taken into hospital with severe abdominal pain. On arrival I was told I had a cyst the size of a fist which was causing pain as it had attached itself to the "pouch" I had made in 2001 in replacement for my large intestines. I was also told I was pregnant!
The doctors insisted that the pregnancy was ectopic and I was to take medication to abort it - I refused - the Angels told me my baby was safe and only 3 weeks pregnant - 2 weeks before the average woman "knows", I had already made a connection with this soul. And so I trusted my truth and went against family opinions and the doctors. A real strength came from this - listening and trusting myself against people who thought they knew what was best.
At 6 weeks a baby was found in the womb - it was not ectopic!
During this time before I went to sleep I found myself sending love and healing to my womb, my ovaries, the baby - my womanhood, all the parts of my body that I had not really accepted let alone loved. I was loving and nurturing my body and looking after me.
This started to cause disturbing visions to come forth, that matched a "feeling" I had carried with me for as long as I could remember but the feeling never had a label or memory attached to it - of being sexually abused as a very young child by my father and mother - something that I had completely blanked out of my memory. I found it hard to accept this as truth - and kept on pushing it aside but still the visions came.
At 9 weeks I had a scan to check the baby and the cyst - the baby had no heartbeat. After the shock and tears - I spent some time silent with the Angels and I was told that this soul had visited for a brief time to teach me a new level of self love and acceptance. I was asked to not give up and to keep on loving and nurturing my body - I was told that the soul had awoken memories in me that I needed to remember, accept and forgive - I would then awaken the Goddess within. It was essential to my spiritual growth to learn of this compassion and power. It was essential for me to feel comfortable in my own skin and for my emotions to be consistent for my work on this earthplane - no matter what.
Three weeks ago my brother returned home from Canada after four years, he was not well at all - since Christmas he had been having awful flashbacks of being sexually abused by my mother. Although I felt anger and grief for the pain that I could see in him, there was also relief - what I had been seeing and feeling was truth.
A lot has happened in a short period of time. I have had to try and accept what happened which has been hard - a child has unconditional love for a parent so to accept that I am right and my parents were wrong has been a challenge. But if someone was abusing my children would anything they said as a form of an excuse be acceptable - no - then that behavior - that pattern is no longer acceptable for me, no matter who started it.
What this has showed me is that although I was living a spiritual life of love, peace and joy, there was a part of me (a tiny "pip") that would arise now and again - so angry, so sad and seem to disrupt my life and who I choose to be - there was a part of me that thought it was acceptable to be treated by others in a abusive manner and felt unworthy of life's gifts - this part of me was so forgotten and hidden that I could not explain why this anger would rise or why I was still allowing abusive relationships in my life. My life was not consistent as I wanted it to be and now I know why.
I am truly grateful that this is all happening, so I may release myself from all that no longer is and be who I choose to be - complete and whole, a Goddess, not a princess waiting in her locked room for her Knight anymore. I have clarity now as to how I may complete the jigsaw.
You see, when you can heal that hidden part of you that thinks it is acceptable for your life situation and relationships to be as they are, you will understand how and why the pattern started, you can than forgive and let go of it - your relationships in your life will then either have to change or leave - for the healing would have been done. The view in the mirror will change!
This is already happening for me as each day I accept a little more, forgive a little more and love myself a bit more - I am sharing my truth, speaking out! I know that life can change and will change for you. The journey begins within!!
I cannot say it does not hurt - it does - But there are lessons in this pain, that are worth learning, there are lessons in this pain that will manifest the life I desire of love, peace, joy and abundance, a life that will be consistent and in alignment with who I am. Moving through the pain rather than hiding it, is the power of healing.
Your greatest challenge is your greatest healing - wise words and so very, very true.
I hope you have found healing in my words - if anything I now know that my relationship with you can now continue to be honest, I felt like I was holding back to people who trust me and know me inside out - nothing hidden. I am who I am.
Love and Blessings
Michelle x
Monday, April 02, 2007
Patterns
Morning Angel Friends,
I hope the sun is warming your skin and soothing all worries - today is a beautiful day *smile*.
I have had quite a few responses to my post "Life is a theatre" with the question - how?
Living in the moment is an important part of this healing, to understand that to live in the past only re- creates those patterns for your future and to understand to live in the future, makes the here and now meaning less. A technique to live in the now, which I add is a wonderful experience on a sunshine filled day like this - is to just sit and be aware of your breathing - follow the breathe in and out of the body as you do this you are becoming aware and giving attention to your inner world - making the outer world of less importance - this will move your focus to where it needs to be - "the only journey is within" - the outer will pale into focus. Your power as a spiritual being will grow as you are not giving it out to the outer world, your energy levels will be higher and most of all as you become more aware of you and your inner world, you will understand the parts of you that are still playing separate roles in your life - rather than from a whole being.
A great book to help you understand the different characters we can play out in life, so that you can honestly look at you and heal your self is Chakras and their archetypes by Ambika Wauters - available at Amazon.
Sitting in meditation and chanting the sound of "om" is both healing and cleansing.
On a website I spoke to you all about before Christmas www.voiceoftheangels.com where Dyan gives free Angel Card Readings there are also meditation CDs for sale composed and written by Dyan. I have mediatied using her CD "Patterns" and found this very cleansing, it bought tears through in all the right places and I received further understanding of myself.
And last but not least - look in the mirror, look at the people or situations that are causing you pain - what pattern in your life have you kept on playing out - or what feeling in you as never left - anger, insecurity? Where does this pattern, this feeling come from - sit in silence and ask your Angels to show you how you may heal this part of you - ask to see this part of you - take time to listen to you - I think that is very important - to listen to what this part of you has to say.
Be kind to yourself, love yourself - Put flowers by your bed and wake up to their sweet smell and delicate beauty, book a massage, a hair cut, time with people you love and who love you, give yourself permission to see the magnificence in you.
I wish you all a perfect day - may you truly blossom in light and love.
Yours -
Michelle x x
I hope the sun is warming your skin and soothing all worries - today is a beautiful day *smile*.
I have had quite a few responses to my post "Life is a theatre" with the question - how?
Living in the moment is an important part of this healing, to understand that to live in the past only re- creates those patterns for your future and to understand to live in the future, makes the here and now meaning less. A technique to live in the now, which I add is a wonderful experience on a sunshine filled day like this - is to just sit and be aware of your breathing - follow the breathe in and out of the body as you do this you are becoming aware and giving attention to your inner world - making the outer world of less importance - this will move your focus to where it needs to be - "the only journey is within" - the outer will pale into focus. Your power as a spiritual being will grow as you are not giving it out to the outer world, your energy levels will be higher and most of all as you become more aware of you and your inner world, you will understand the parts of you that are still playing separate roles in your life - rather than from a whole being.
A great book to help you understand the different characters we can play out in life, so that you can honestly look at you and heal your self is Chakras and their archetypes by Ambika Wauters - available at Amazon.
Sitting in meditation and chanting the sound of "om" is both healing and cleansing.
On a website I spoke to you all about before Christmas www.voiceoftheangels.com where Dyan gives free Angel Card Readings there are also meditation CDs for sale composed and written by Dyan. I have mediatied using her CD "Patterns" and found this very cleansing, it bought tears through in all the right places and I received further understanding of myself.
And last but not least - look in the mirror, look at the people or situations that are causing you pain - what pattern in your life have you kept on playing out - or what feeling in you as never left - anger, insecurity? Where does this pattern, this feeling come from - sit in silence and ask your Angels to show you how you may heal this part of you - ask to see this part of you - take time to listen to you - I think that is very important - to listen to what this part of you has to say.
Be kind to yourself, love yourself - Put flowers by your bed and wake up to their sweet smell and delicate beauty, book a massage, a hair cut, time with people you love and who love you, give yourself permission to see the magnificence in you.
I wish you all a perfect day - may you truly blossom in light and love.
Yours -
Michelle x x
re - Life is a theatre
Hi Michelle
Thank you for sharing your mirror experience, to expand on that I realised that i was also the director, producer and script writer of my own play of life and sitting in the director’s chair watching what was happening on stage, I had forgotten what I had written in my script, who was playing the roles and more importantly who was waiting in the wings to enter centre stage. My life was unfolding on stage in front of my eyes and I then accepted that I had written my own story and from that moment on, no longer pointed the finger of blame at anyone for playing their part because in truth they were playing their part as I had asked them to act and each one deserved an Oscar.
With love and light
Jeaninexxx
Thank you for sharing your mirror experience, to expand on that I realised that i was also the director, producer and script writer of my own play of life and sitting in the director’s chair watching what was happening on stage, I had forgotten what I had written in my script, who was playing the roles and more importantly who was waiting in the wings to enter centre stage. My life was unfolding on stage in front of my eyes and I then accepted that I had written my own story and from that moment on, no longer pointed the finger of blame at anyone for playing their part because in truth they were playing their part as I had asked them to act and each one deserved an Oscar.
With love and light
Jeaninexxx
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Thought for the day ...
Courage.
"I have the courage to be wrong, and the stength of a rose." Mitten.
True courage is the willingness to fully experience what ever you are feeling at this moment. You can attempt to run from your emotions but eventually they will catch up with you.
They will chase you, haunt you, until finally you give up the chase. When you turn around completely offer yourself into the "tiger's mouth" of your own worst fears, you will discover that your openness will turn into courage itself.
The willingness to experience your own vulnerability and find the strength in it: that is true courage.
Courage surrounds you at every moment.
The Journey cards - Brandon Bays
"I have the courage to be wrong, and the stength of a rose." Mitten.
True courage is the willingness to fully experience what ever you are feeling at this moment. You can attempt to run from your emotions but eventually they will catch up with you.
They will chase you, haunt you, until finally you give up the chase. When you turn around completely offer yourself into the "tiger's mouth" of your own worst fears, you will discover that your openness will turn into courage itself.
The willingness to experience your own vulnerability and find the strength in it: that is true courage.
Courage surrounds you at every moment.
The Journey cards - Brandon Bays
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