The very core of you.

This growth period I have been growing through since Christmas, in some ways is so "easy" as so many layers that no longer fit have already been removed in the past seven years, that the process is natural and the knowing of what is happening makes it more manageable to cope.

And yet, what is happening now - is the very core of me - the hardest part to accept and forgive - for I had forgotten these memories, taken myself out of my body as I sang Hickory Dickory Dock - until recently when a beautiful soul payed a brief visit into my life, a baby that made me love parts of my body that I had not sent so much love or acceptance to before- This is the core of me, that will be my greatest healing. I am breaking free!

To be all we are, to receive all we desire, we need to be what it is we seek, perfectly aligned with love, peace, abundance, joy - and so my daily practice as been just so and I have lived just so. Daily affirmations, meditation, positive thoughts and feelings - and yet some things were flowing and some were not - And now I understand for the very, very core of me was not in flow, a feeling that would arise now and again and knock me off balance but did not have a label - a tiny "pip" of unworthiness, anger and grief - a child of only seven years old who has still played a part in a 35 year olds theatre.

How can life be perfection when something deeper than deep lies within you in confliction, beyond your conscious knowledge and yet so much a part of your life.

So that is what I am trying to explain and hoping I am making some sense. On some layers you may be joy, peace, love, kindness, beauty and yet life is not quite flowing as the beautiful river you truly are - just one tiny pebble is preventing a consistent flow - you just need to find the behavioural pattern of self abuse you play in your life and yet accuse everyone and everything else of making you feel that way - then once you have found it - be willing to discover when in your life that "pip" was planted - and then understand why you have felt you have needed to live by this belief or in this shadow for so long. Now accept, forgive and let go.

You are beautiful - here - NOW - and deserve to have and be everything that reflects that beauty back to you - detach from your life for a moment, find the pattern from the past - and break free.

You can do it!!

Life is a theatre

Today I am in a contemplative mood - so much has happened of late that I have needed to at last digest and try to accept thirty odd years later.

This morning I can see that life is a theatre and that we can use this idea to see how we can work "within" to make the stage a brighter and more magnificent performance.

Looking at my four children each one reflecting a different side of me - my husband talking to me this morning how he feels unheard, for me to only reply - snap. Even our beautiful new puppy is displaying something within that I need to look at and heal.

All the blame of others behaviour or how we may feel mistreated, is only a reflection of a part of ourselves who believes it is acceptable to be treated in this manner - that person or persons will keep on behaving that way - holding up a mirror of what you feel is justified behaviour somewhere deep down from this life or even another - a lot can be a result of decisions you made as a child or a belief that was fed to you - to be seen and not hear is a classic.

Two weeks ago my wonderful and most treasured friend Sarah treated me to a massage for my birthday, while waiting I picked up a book and it fell open to a page, a page that held the best and only advice that we need be told -

"The only journey, is the journey within."

Remember life is a theatre - what you see in life are all the different aspects of who you believe yourself to be at this moment of time - if any of what you see, does not fit anymore, do not expect others to change - change you and the world will change for you.

Kids in Church

KIDS IN CHURCH
3-year-old Reese:
"Our Father, Who does art in heaven,
Harold is His name.
Amen."
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A little boy was over heard praying:
"Lord, if you can't make me a better boy, don't worry about it.

I'm having a real good time like I am."
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After the christening of his baby brother in church,
Jason sobbed all the way home in the back seat of the car.
His father asked him three times what was wrong.
Finally, the boy replied,
"That preacher said he wanted us brought up
in a Christian home,
and I wanted to stay with you guys."
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One particular four-year-old prayed,
"And forgive us our trash baskets
as we forgive those who put trash in our baskets."
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A Sunday school teacher asked her children as they
were on the way to church service,
"And why is it necessary to be quiet in church?"
One bright little girl replied,
"Because people are sleeping."
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A mother was preparing pancakes for her sons,
Kevin 5, and Ryan 3.
The boys began to argue over who would get
the first pancake.
Their mother saw the opportunity for a moral lesson.
"If Jesus were sitting here, He would say,
'Let my brother have the first pancake, I can wait.'
Kevin turned to his younger brother and said,
"Ryan, you be Jesus!"
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A father was at the beach with his children
when the four-year-old son ran up to him,
grabbed his hand, and led him to the shore
where a seagull lay dead in the sand.
"Daddy, what happened to him?" the son asked.
"He died and went to Heaven," the Dad replied.
The boy thought a moment and then said,
"Did God throw him back down?"
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A wife invited some people to dinner.
At the table, she turned to their six-year-old
daughter and said,
"Would you like to say the blessing?"
"I wouldn't know what to say," the girl replied.
"Just say what you hear Mommy say,"
the wife answered.
The daughter bowed her head and said,
"Lord, why on earth did I invite
all these people to dinner?"
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